#139
To: David W.
From: Joanna
Monday, August 20
Dear David -
I do hope Ralph (is that your ducks name?) & Congolia are alright.
I received your card & photo last week (great picture, by the way) & I’ve been enjoying them since. I’ve also been thinking about my letter to you, and in my enthusiasm hope I didn’t hit you like a ton of bricks. I wrote it before I had time to recover from the state in which you left me and realized you’d be reading it a week later. There is always the possibility that it was just a weekend love affair. I hope not. I know my feelings were (and are) definitely real. I hope your’s were and are just as real, but won’t be disappointed if it never goes any further than that weekend. It was wonderful & I’m happy I met you and glad we spend the time together. I’m not negating my first letter - I still meant every word of it.
I’ve still decided to move from L.A. & it’s true, I’ve always liked Toronto. I was thinking of moving there before moving to L.A. on an impulse, so I’ll probably be living there sooner or later. From there, on my way to who knows where.
Thanks for helping me to visualize it (leaving) as a reality. I know that I’d be better off (in all ways) in a less “permissive” (I don’t know if that’s the word I want but I think you understand) environment but it’s so easy to stay… and stay… sometimes I feel I’ve gotten on a merry-go-round and I can see it constantly gets more difficult to jump off. But, I don’t want to seem melodramatic. I have faith in myself & that I’ll do the right thing. So, what’s happening in the continuing saga of David, Derrick, & Lionel. Dare I say, the 3 Musketeers?! Have you come to a workable relationship yet? It seemed rather questionable last week. Do you remember Judy having a date with an Englishman named David? Well, would you believe his (also English) friend is named Derrick? I thought that was a laugh. However, the similarity ended there… I asked if they had a friend named Lionel…. just kidding!
Did you ever make it to Washington D.C. to see your friend, Don?
By the way, you probably know this, but just for the record, the L.A. Rams weren’t sold, they just made a (great) deal - the proverbial offer you can’t refuse - to play in Anaheim.
Nothing’s new with me. I’m still doing temp work, but quit my indefinite term 3-day a week gig. I don’t know why I accepted it. They were nice people, I guess that’s the reason. But now, I can enjoy what I like about temp work - freedom, variety, etc. while looking for what I want.
I’ve started jogging again. I did it once before but got ill and couldn’t run for awhile. I was just long enuf for me to lose my enthusiasm. It takes only a short while to really get into it; then you feel guilty if and you don’t, and miss if you can’t.
Speaking of missing what you cant… I miss you & the warm good feeling I had when we were together. I haven’t felt that way for a very long time… oh well. Since I can’t hold you little wee bod in my arms - I’ll be holding you in my dreams.
Take care & please let me hear from you soon.
Love
Joanna
p.s. Did you get the T-shirts I sent? If you want me to exchange anything, including the UCLA things, I’ll be glad to!
P.P.S. pictures on their way this week.