#101
Notes from The Player’s collection
Makin men - of little boys
Making women - of little girls
Empty days - empty ways - without her
I - am actually - seriously -
Contemplating asking her -
To marry me - now - later?
That in itself is staggering
This - has all given me a -
Splitting headach
So naive - about - so many things
Don’t have - to do anything - anymore
The magic age - the total
Ineptitude of - society
A little feelin blue -
Feelin a little sad -
Feel a bit lonely
The evenings and nights are the worst
And waking up
Time measured - in days of waiting
Unclutter my cluttered mind
Show it to me - make me see it -
The way it is
Revelation - come to me
It’s much easier - to handle something
Happening to yourself - or having happened
To yourself - than it is to handle
Something that has happening or is
Happening to someone you love
You’ve got to take a look at the
Cards your holding and make
The best you can out of them
Procrastination - making things
Worse - you must evaluate a
Situation and make a decision
And take decisive action and
Follow through
It’s a long hard road
Destination; anywhere, anything
Things aren’t hard, mean, cruel
Or vicious to start with
People make it that way
A lot of the things that happen in this world make me sick - physically sick - they work my mind, make me feel downright uncomfortable - I don’t have to see it, only hear about it. I feel this way not because they could happen to me - but because these things could happen to anybody - just that the potential is there - and that it does happen - that men do to other men inconceivable things - I want to shut it out, forgot about it - it doesn’t touch me - but I don’t - I can it doesn’t have to be that way - it shouldn’t be that way - if just in little bits and pieces - you’ve got to do something.
There are too many people running around that need some screws put to them - nobody can do it all - just pick out the few you can reach in your lifetime - and do it right - get self righteous and you’re jus as sad as they are.
You go through with this raw thing - you better know - everything there is - you better be the fuckin best - if you pall for somebody - you better be the bet they can get.
This is a dirty little world - with a lot of shit going on - too, too much - you get invulnerability to that dirt - that shit - you get invulnerability to the point where you can fight it - where you it cant touch you - where you can do something significant.
Don’t talk to me on philosophical levels - talk about whats happening - don’t feed me your bullshit - bullshit where it does some good - then do something - talk yourself blue in the face - but you better be sure it’s doing some good - you can’t tell people to get fucked - then expect them to acknowledge your superiority and go along with you - sure, the philosophy cal levels are important tub they mean nothing if not realized
Tonight - it hit me - I cried
They won’t do it - again
False pedestals - are made to knock over - do some knocking
The only way - to make to that point - is while maintaining your personal integrity - don’t let them make you lose sight of it
The shit - has just begun - to hit the fan
I’m going to be sick
The only thing that can really hurt you - is to have your spirit crushed
You have - but a brief moment - of time - use it - make it meaningful
Invulnerability from the petiness - the dirt - comes from within one self - from anything from that level meaning nothing
Oh, oh, oh - tears and joy