#9
To: Joan
From: Jerry
My Dearest Joan,
This is perhaps the hardest letter I have ever had to write anyone. It is very difficult to put down on paper the many thoughts and feelings I have had towards you since I first met you.
Joan, I would never want to lie to you or hurt you in anyway, I care so much for you I would only be hurting myself. Let me start by explaining the situation of my marriage.
There is no need to go into great detail about my past life before I started to go straight in this industry. About anything you could do good or bad, I have done. When I first started in this business in California I found it difficult to escape my past reputation, also the way I look and dress didn't exactly mark me as a square.
About four years ago I started dating this girl who was very successful in the record business. She was very pretty & very sharp & got along great with people. She also had a 1-year old son & had just gotten divorced. At first I kind of dug her, but as time when on she began to get on my nerves. She had one great asset, however, she really knows how to handle people. At about this same time I'd really began to to dig this business & wanted to go someplace in it, but I always had this playboy tag around my neck. I kept telling her about this & she really dug me & offered me a proposition. She wanted to marry me so that in the eye of peers I would now have the respectability of a married man with a kid. Also she would not redirect what I did as long as I did nothing to embarrass her. I guess I was riped, it sounded like a great proposition & I went for it.
In the last four years my feeling for her has has grown to numbness & I must have gone through hundreds of broads, then I met you.
Joan I can't explain how you make me feel for the first time in many, many years even long before I met her I haven't felt or thought about anyone like you. It's as though you were part of me. When I walk into some place with you it's as if you should be there. When I'm inside you it's like you were built for me. I'm not very good at all this mushy stuff so it's hard to put all that I feel into words.
At this point I don't really know what to say except I didn't want to lose you & I want you to dig me very much, in fact more than anyone.
I'm a very big boy & if you don't really dig me or the thought going with a married guy, I will understand. I also know I can't just see you or be with you just like any other broad. I really mean it, when I feel like I own your ass & with you I can't have it any other way.
I hope you will understand what I've written & more important maybe you will try and know what it feels like for a guy like me to really dig someone. It's something I guess I fought against for a long time!
I will call you after you read this & I hope you understand.
Love,
Jerry